I really just want to walk outside, throw my arms up in the air and scream, like actually scream. I feel like it would so benefit me right now; of course my neighbors would think I was mentally insane or something.
Anyways, my weekend has been amazing, I didn't get to see Chris at work and I missed Ballet, I barely did homework, but the time I spent with friends was so great and honestly, I wish every day would be more like that. Going out to eat with birthday girls, sitting in the park, climbing trees, seeing a movie with my dad, eating dinner with my mom, talking on the phone late at night with childhood friends, hearing from my sister. It all sounds so amazing and then... Annoyance happens, hmph, it always does.
I don't know whether to believe you or hold your words really tightly to my heart, but sometimes the things you say are so like fairy tails. I just don't think it'll happen anymore. If I could blame myself anymore than I already do, or take back what I did, I would, trust me, I would, but making me hope EVEN MORE than I do, is ridiculous. It'll get to the point where I won't believe in it anymore and I don't ever want that to happen.
I just want things to go my way for once, that sounds so selfish and I hate myself for saying it, but when will it be my time to shine in this "lime light" that someone else is always shining in? I don't know, maybe it'll happen soon, either way, right now. I'm happy and I want it to stay that way.
I have this bad problem. I make promises. Now, I know I can keep them, but something happens and I end up hurting the person and I just feel bad and I keep making these promises. When am I going to learn?
This isn't a long post. Shed some light on me, really.
Lady Gaga, I'm so glad you made such a beautiful R&B song.
It’s been a long time since I came around
It’s been along time but I’m back in town
But this time I’m not leaving without you
You taste like whiskey when you kiss me oooh
I’ll give up anything again to be your baby doll
Yeah this time I’m not leaving without you
This person doesn't seem like they're worth the time you're giving them. That, or they really don't understand you at all right now. I hope they come to their senses soon =/ You know all your friends (including me) are here for you, and if you need anything you can call.
ReplyDeleteI really appreciate your input man, it truly means a lot. Thanks, I know for a fact you're only a call a way if I need ya. Thank you. Really :)
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