Hello Beautiful

Right now, that urge to go outside and scream just came back.

I wish, I wish so badly that I knew the answer, I wish I had the courage, I wish, ugh I so wish, I could help.
I wish I could say everything I've wanted to say, I wish I could express why I love this song so much. I wish I could stop thinking altogether. I WISH... Well, I'm not going there.

Wishing, we do it so often and sometimes I don't know what the deal is, but lately, I've been wishing a lot. I feel like in a sense one of my wishes is coming true and then I'm unsure. I'm so unsure because the other part of the wish hasn't fulfilled what needs to be done for this wish to occur and I don't want to try to fulfill it because... Well honestly, I think that would complicate things and WE ALL KNOW how the definition of Doug is "complicated". I wish it wasn't. I really do. I don't even know what I'm typing, I'm just typing and it's... It makes me think this complicated thing is dumb, it makes me want to forget it and get rid of it and then the other part is telling me to pursue and to take the first few steps. Gosh, I'm dumb.

My heart is beating quickly.
Its steadiness starts continues very fast.
Every little beat hits me harder.
As I ponder how you'll be in my arms in the final mass.
Soft touch, light skin, dreamed nights.


What a weird random poem I wrote....

Hello my beautiful
It seems I just can't stay away
It's been so very long
That I've felt anything this strong

You hold my heart the way you did an hour ago
I've said all I can say and yet I must be sure you know

[Chorus]
That I love love love you
I need need need you
I long long long to hold you in my arms again
I'm so so sad to
Ever hurt hurt hurt you
I'm more afraid of losing you than anything before

(heeeeey yey yeah oh…)
(Ooo-oh oh)

[Chorus]
I love love love you
I need need need you
I long long long to hold you in my arms again
I'm so so sad to
Ever hurt hurt hurt you
I'm more afraid of losing you than anything before
Please can I have one more…hello

For once, because of that word. I'm not ending with Adieu.